Psalms 42-43

    This week’s psalm appears as two psalms in our English translations: Psalm 42-43.  They are, in reality, one psalm, and they are very personal to me.  Two years after I became a Christian I fell away to the point that I was depressed and suicidal and this psalm is the one that spoke to me the most:

My tears have been my food day and night,

while men say to me all day long,

“Where is your God?”

    This was the position I found myself in among my Christian friends.  In the 1980s it wasn’t considered possible for a Christian to be depressed.  And I remembered, myself:

how I used to go with the multitude,

leading the procession to the house of God

    And it took doing what the psalmist did to get myself out of the cycle of depression and suicidal thoughts - asking myself:

Why are you downcast, O my soul?

Why so disturbed within me?

    And then advising myself:

Put your hope in God,

for I will yet praise him,

my Saviour and my God.

    It did feel, as the psalmist writes, as if God had forgotten me.  And so I did what the second half of the psalm (or Psalm 43) does; I pleaded with God:

Vindicate me, O God

and plead my cause against an ungodly nation.

You are God, my stronghold.

Why have you rejected me?

Why must I go about mourning,

oppressed by the enemy?

    And it made a massive difference!  I was brought to his holy mountain; to the place where He dwells, and I have never had a break in my relationship with my Saviour and my God since then - that was 1983, and as a result of that experience I was called into ministry and I have seen the power of God at work, not just in my life, but in the lives of so many other people.

    So my advice would be: if everything seems dark and hopeless and there seems to be no way out, have a good long look at yourself and ask yourself why you are feeling like that; then have a good long conversation with God and ask him for his Salvation.

    And this is a guaranteed money-back offer - you will yet praise him as your Saviour and your God.  I can guarantee it!