FriDay the 13th

For the superstitious out there I changed the format: "Friday the 13th". A load of nonsense, but Heigh-Ho!

I slept better last night. I obviously needed a day of agony with no daytime sleep to wear me out. I woke a few times in the night, but went back to sleep. I did see 4am, but then I woke up at 5:30 with abdominal pains and a headache and sore eyes. It took me until 6:55am to get up. The pains haven't left!

Anyway, I wasn't going to write about my whining and whinging, but if any of the people who lied about me not really being sick are reading this: OUCH!

I spent a long time this morning ruminating (I'm like a cow. It's 9am, so it wasn't that long). And if I had my laptop in front of me this would have been a very long post.

I said, the other day, about remembering conversations. Well, with the brain fog I have (one of the symptoms) I am forgetting words. I was sitting in the CLT meeting writing words in a notebook that I wanted to use (at one point I wanted to say "confirmed" and the word "ordained" kept popping up, so I wrote "Confirmation". And then didn't use it; but I tried a word I hadn't thought of and it didn't come for a minute or two. I always said that if I get angry (you don't want to see me angry {Incredible Hulk}) I become very articulate and I can argue people under the table. Not at the moment.

I got to thinking about what I said about not being religious and so finding it difficult in the Methodist Church. I heard something at the Local Preachers' meeting the other night that made me realise there is little difference between some Methodists and Roman Catholic Theology.

I digress, again! I was off work for 4 months; or 117 days. That was all of November; December (which is Advent in some people's RC thinking; Christmas; New Year with the covenant services; and February. In all that time no one offered to bring home communion. Now, in case this seems like a complaint, it isn't.

I would have turned down the offer if one had been made - it just wasn't.

But in modern Methodist ecclesiology communion (Holy or otherwise) is considered vital. There are equations that are offered to make sure the people are not "deprived" by not having enough ministers to take communion at least monthly.

I'm not complaining and I certainly don't feel deprived; I just want to point out how difficult it must be to be religious.

On our current preaching plan I am down to take one communion service - Easter Sunday! People from my previous circuit will know of my theological objection to communion on Easter Sunday. The Last Supper was Thursday; to be liturgically correct, Easter Sunday should be about celebrating his resurrection, not his death. But, I have, on the whole, given up. Jesus had trouble with religious people, so I shouldn't expect any less.

I am contented with my reality and don't need to shadow.

I was going to write about adoption. I will probably do that tomorrow on Mothers' Day Eve (is that a thing?).

And then, as I have Sunday off, I will write about mothers. I've had 2. As I said, everything by extremes!