Day forty four

The last couple of days have been particularly painful. I sent in a request for a new prescription a couple of days ago and yesterday I had a text from the medical centre telling me that my prescription will be ready in a few days and asking me to make an appointment to go in and talk about my ongoing condition. They added a link, but there's nothing available until after Christmas and they have restricted me to seeing the doctor I saw last time. I've decided not to make the appointment. I'm having a CT scan on the 27th December and I have to see a doctor for the results, which can take up to 3 weeks, so why would I go in to talk about how I feel? I am hoping this time that they will find something. There has to be some explanation for all this pain. I just want a name for this. This is 6 weeks that I have been off and I will be off for another 6 weeks. I don't see how I'm going to get better until something is diagnosed and treated.

It is very tiring. So no deep thoughts today.