Day five

I went for a walk yesterday morning. It was not intentionally round the cemetery, but as the cemetery is behind our home I thought I should see it at some point - 10 months after we moved here. I used to walk around my home town when I was a teenager. That was a dangerous thing to do! But I was never attacked. It gave me time to think. That is a thing I don’t have so much of anymore. If I sit in the house I read. Walking allows space. I don’t understand people who walk around looking at their phones. It seems that my pains allow me to walk, which is good. But here’s the thing about yesterday. I also had a dentist appointment so I had to drive to Hopton. My wife came with me and while we were up there we did some shopping in Tesco. I found that exhausting, but I was thinking, “What if someone sees me?” And I hate thinking like that, but I’m not good at taking time off.

I am genuinely in pain, but I have to eat. And my wife doesn’t drive and she has chronic fatigue.

I know a lot of people who are not well, some have cancer, and they are walking around so if they can walk, so can I. I was advised to walk by a doctor. It’s funny how we can think that people are judging us when they probably are not even thinking like us. So that’s another one to work on over the next few weeks.